I’ll still do my Facebook, but it’s not like I do much there in general, but I’m thinking of dropping my Twitter account. At least making it so that I don’t post on Twitter. It’s interesting to follow some people, but I don’t see the point of posting on that site either. I’m going to keep up with Facebook so people who are interested can keep up with what’s going on especially with the baby. So that’s it.

Goodbye.

What was funny is we left for the movie shortly after the Daytona 500 started. I returned home nearly 4 hours later and the race was still on. And it ended great as well.

Do I think Dale Jr. has a chance at the championship this year? No. But I think he’ll do better. Bonus would be him winning it though. I just don’t get my hopes up.

The baby is beating me up from the inside. She’s especially active at night which to me means she’ll have to be trained at birth to sleep at night, not be awake.

Tomorrow we’re doing a Toddler Chef cooking thing. Hopefully the kids enjoy it. Then I’m babysitting for a friend, much to the pleasure of my mother. LOL! But it shouldn’t be long.

I was going to write an interesting post, but nope I have nothing interesting to write at the moment.

Saw the doctor today! Heartbeat sounded good. Doctor seemed please.

Lost 4lbs as well. I’m hoping to continue to lose as well. I know some people are thinking, WHAT?! But I’m obese I could stand to lose the weight. The baby is measuring fine, actually big, so the baby isn’t suffering since I’m losing. Actually I think the baby is benefiting.

I asked her what my glucose number was when I did my glucose test at 10 weeks. She said 107. 130 is when you hit the high and above normal range. I’m happy, 107 is better than when I was pregnant with Kaylee. So that’s great. Hopefully at 26 weeks I will pass that one hour as well.

My blood pressure, which always worries me, was 120/74. Back down to where I was pre-Kaylee. My blood pressure has never been high, but since Kaylee it went up a bit to 130s/80s. So I’m glad to see it back down to where I’m used to seeing it. This might be because of the weight loss. Or maybe because I’m not eating as many things with salt in them and I’m drinking more water? Eh, who knows. But it’s low. Blood Pressure issues scare the shit out of me. Mainly the fact that you can have a stroke and die. I’d prefer to live.

I talked to the doctor about my heartbeat issues and I feel better now. I think part of it is anxiety, you can have attacks even without feeling the emotions, and also just hormones. I do notice it only happens for a few days a month and she says you have rushes of hormones each month, almost like PMSing. That’s when this happens. She said as long as I don’t faint, it should be a problem. So I feel better.

I asked about my birth plan as well. With Kaylee I never got to go over it. It’s nothing huge, I just told her I’d rather not be barking orders out at the hospital. She said to bring it in next time and we’d go over it. She said no problem with wanting to go over it early, she totally understands.

I’m sure I had other questions but I didn’t write them down. I didn’t ask about alternatives to Epidurals and Spinal Blocks, mainly because she said we’d go over the birth plan next time. So when we go over that I’ll talk to her about alternatives.

I’m feeling the baby daily, especially at night. She says that’s how it goes. LOL! I said yeah I’ll have to retrain this baby when she’s born. LOL!

For instance this Packin’ Smart 5 Tier system is so very cool. You could pack a whole days worth of formula in it. So very cool.

Then there is this Baby Leg Warmers. So cute!

There are a few other things that I can’t remember right now, one I know is far too much money anyhow.

Tomorrow I see the doctor by the way. We’ll see how things are going.

What you do it go over to NickJr and print out the patterns and then just glue everything together. What’s kind of cool too is if you want you can make it a hand puppet by not glueing the bottom shut. I stuffed this one with stuffing so it’s a little plush animal instead.

Later today we’re going to make Moose. Sadly for a 3 year old, this craft kind of is boring to do. Mainly because they can’t do the cutting, only the gluing and the cutting part takes forever. So my advice is to cut the patterns out before you even tell your child you are going to be doing it so that when you do start it’s simply gluing everything in place.

You can make other animals as well, I’m thinking of doing a cat and a dog as well. I’ll put up pictures of our creations.

Anyhow back to the reason for this post. During this I stumbled upon a website dedicated to pointing out the lies and what they deem bad parenting of this blogger. Some of it is amazing, it’s public record if you wanted to dig that deep. It also makes you wonder about how happy her life really is and why organizations such as Focus on the Family would even hold her family up to be a representative of the organization. Her husband was arrested twice on domestic violence last year. Hardly the model of a perfect family. But they have become very religious, I think even more religious than before, so perhaps it’s a story of redemption that Focus likes? Who knows, and frankly don’t care cause I’m not a fan of Focus at all.

It’s just interesting to know the true person behind the blog. The real struggles they’ve had, which I think she should openly address, and speak to. I mean many people in this nation/world go through these same things, losing homes, debt, domestic violence, sick children, skewed priorities, etc… so why not go ahead and actually speak to those things and how her faith and strength helped guide her through. Instead she deletes, bans and basically ignores anyone who questions her on those issues. There is nothing wrong with what’s happened in her life, so why she feels the need to hide them is beyond me. But sometimes people just like to keep the crappy stuff private. I think it just shows who you are when you tell everything.

Anyhow that was my thoughts on the whole thing. I’ll continue to follow both sites just because I find it fascinating. Plus the length some people will go to get information is amazing as well.

Well we didn’t have the money to pay that so we kind have been sitting on it. Today I sat down, because I have the money now, to write out a letter because they were charging a fee, which has no explanation. It’s just some amount they put on the bill, no reasoning behind it. Frankly I’ll pay for things that need to be paid for, but I won’t pay for anything that I’m not legally liable to pay for.

So I sat down to write out my letter and do some research, cause I like to word these things correctly, I don’t want to sound like a moron. In my research I found though that the charges for cleaning the house, inside and out, couldn’t be charged. I mean they’re no real law on it, but since they refused to do a walk thru with us, they gave us no ability to clean the house to their specifications. So according to the website, which I used to break the lease before, if this case was to go to court, they’d probably not get that cost because as a landlord you have to give that opportunity to the tenant to clean the house to your liking, which we weren’t given at all.

So that meant 402 off the 902 because that’s how much they were charging for cleaning. Then they were charging a 425 termination fee, no explanation of what it was for. Landlords have to prove damages in order to charge tenants. And since the lease itself didn’t list a money amount I don’t believe they have the right to just pull an amount out of their ass. I mean what prevents them from saying the fee is $1000? So I just am really wondering what the 425 covers, you know damages and loss wise.

So subtract that amount and it drops it down to like 75 bucks. So I’m finishing up the letter and putting together a table to explain better what I did and why and realize they’re charging us for a month of rent, when it was vacant. No problem, I fully expected that. But wait, the rent is 1808.33 instead of what we were paying 1750. I’m not sure where they got their rent number. I looked at the paper, it says that it’s unpaid rent for just 1 month. The paper says we were out on the 30th of Sept. So there are no days that are over so why 1808.33 and not 1750. I don’t know why they did this, whether it was a mistake or just another attempt at getting more money. So I adjusted the price to the correct one.

So once all is said and done, if they take my arguments, even if they hate it, and realize they really have no standing on these things, I’ll owe them 17.25. I’m sending a check that says paid in full. We’ll see if they cash it, I’m hoping they do so.

I don’t ask much, and I certainly don’t want to take advantage of anyone, but just because I’m a tenant doesn’t mean I get to be taken advantage of myself. And often property management companies do that to their tenants and it’s not right. I know the law, and I know how it applies, so the best they could do is at least follow the laws with me.

So we’ll see how this turns out. Should be interesting.

And to add more to the hilarity is the Air Resources Board who are trying to basically get us all to stop driving our cars because they think we’re destroying the environment. Now don’t get me wrong, I think emission standards are good things, but these people are going overboard. And in particular ruining business’ for many people, causing people to lose their business due to enacting standards based on false science. And that’s just downright wrong. I mean people are struggling as it is, and here is a group trying to put people out of business with false information, and lying to the public about this science.

Then there is a moron down in Orange County introducing a bill to the State Senate to make free parking, meaning parking in front of your house on the street, at business, etc… illegal unless you pay for a permit or pay a fee at the parking site. What?! His belief is that people won’t drive to the stores and so forth and will take public transportation instead.

He’s obviously not thought this through at all. First I will not be walking to the store to do my grocery shopping. Second not everyone has a great public transit system. I mean seriously imagine how many business’ will lose sales because people are just unwilling to part with their money? I mean people are struggling, we have the highest unemployment in the states, from what I understand, and they’re trying to take more or our money away.

If charging for parking wasn’t enough, they have more ideas, like charging us to drive on the roads. I’m not sure how they intend to do this, perhaps putting some sort of emissions monitor on the car. But they want to charge people who drive the streets and freeways for doing so. Another option is to just make it so that you can’t drive the freeways without paying to do so. Or if you want to drive in the prime lanes on the freeway (the Carpool and number 3 lane) they’d charge for that. Or just charging to drive in the Car Pool lane in general, as if car pooling isn’t saving the environment enough.

It’s all insane if you ask me. This state is darn near bankrupt and instead of cutting pay salaries, cutting the waste, they’re trying to make it harder for us to live in this state. I mean a whole bunch of companies have left this state because the taxes are insane. Now they’re working on driving a whole lot more out of the state.

I’m sure that California isn’t the only state going through this stuff right now. By the way people if you live in California and ever come across a petition to make our legislature a part-time one, please sign it. It will save us money. It’s not like the fools work full-time anyhow. We’re one of like 3 states who have a full-time legislature. We don’t need a full-time one.

On a side note, if you vote for Meg Whitman, frankly that’s just a bad idea. The woman couldn’t even take the time to care to vote on our elections for the last 10 or so years, and now she suddenly has interest? Hell no. She’s just looking to put another rung on her ladder, say she got to the governors office. Poizner is who we should be voting for. The man knows how to run a government agency, and in my opinion has run it damn good. So vote for the guy who actually knows how to deal with politicians and doesn’t take crap from them. I know can you believe it, I’m endorsing a Republican.

It’s been ten years this year since we graduated high school. For me it was uneventful. I remember certain things, I was manager of the Volleyball and Track teams. I loved doing that. Sadly I couldn’t continue to do that past the one year I did due to some issues I had with one person and trash talking to the coaches. But whatever, I got a free period instead and went home early, so you can’t beat that.

I didn’t have many friends. Did nothing special. I don’t know if I was teased. I know this one girl did hate me, not sure why I didn’t even know her and she may have mixed me up with my sister. But she would say crap, but most people in that class where she harassed me thought she was a moron anyhow (cause often she said things loud enough for them to hear her, no one ever laughed in agreement) I remember that much. I don’t remember her name, her face yes. She’s not a friend on Facebook for that reason. She’d be the one person that I’d avoid in general more so because I’m not sure why she did what she did.

I mean there was another person who treated me like crap, but I know why she did that, it was just teenage crap basically. So that person is easily forgiven and the whole situation forgotten. But when you have someone attack you, someone you don’t even know at that, it’s just odd and kind of makes the person seem like she was emotionally unstable. Perhaps one day I’ll be enlightened as to why she hated me. LOL!

Anyhow I didn’t have a bad high school years, I remember nothing from before high school, so those must have been alright too. And the hard things, had to be let go and move on because as Dr. Phil would say, why give the bullies the power? Everything is in my control. Only I can let words hurt me. And I chose not to.

Annabelle “Belle” Mae

So Annabelle is typically spelled Anabelle but I don’t like how that looks. So I’m going with the Annabelle.

Annabelle:

Origin: Scottish
Meaning: Grace, Loveable

Mae:

Origin: Hebrew
Meaning: Form of Mary, bitter

I’m not sure I think they do but with how Kaylee talks, about not wanting to be 4, she likes being 3. I’m not sure if she just likes the number 3 or truly is afraid of getting older. Maybe it has nothing to do with being afraid and everything to do with Peter Pan and the whole concept of not growing up that movie revolved around.

Sometimes though it’s heartbreaking to hear and it might be me more projecting my feelings on getting older and fears of dying in general.

I actually hate though that she goes to bed sad sometimes. She did not want to go to bed tonight. Cried and tried to talk to me in an effort to delay bed. But the mini breakdown she had just shows how tired she was anyhow. I’m sure if I go in there in 15 minutes she’ll be asleep.

She’s a joy to wake up to though.

“Mother (my child no longer calls me Mommy, thanks Peter Pan!) It’s morning! I love you!” or it can be something like, “I love you! Good Morning!” Got to love the kids and their way of just making you melt.

I don’t think abstinence only education is at all productive though. I do think that education should be based around abstinence but also include very important issues, pregnancy, STDs, how to protect yourself, etc… I think specifically they should focus on STDs and Pregnancy, and in particular how utterly hard and taxing both can be on a person.

I often think teenage girls have an unrealistic view of what having a baby means, it’s costs, the emotional cost, etc… I think if schools were down right blunt, that it’s hard, very stressful, a full-time job, etc that many girls might re-evaluate their beliefs on it.

And parents need to start looking down on these activities. And people in general. I mean yeah we can provide support, but providing support doesn’t mean the kid doesn’t get a lecture. Parents need to be more active in their kids lives.

But there are others, that are out there, but from serious concerned mothers. Things like “I ate a turkey sandwich, is my baby okay?” “I had cookie dough, is my baby dead?”

Seriously people a lot of the eating guidelines are there are just that guidelines, they aren’t law and if you break them your baby will probably be fine. Why? Because we live in a country that has a pretty good regulated food system. If you lived in a 3rd world country, then you could be concerned.

Then the woman who clearly have no thought for their husbands at all come out and that is what bothers me mother. The utter lack of respect for his family, the constant complaining. And then when people give solutions to problems, the “Oh that won’t work.” You’re either a victim or you aren’t. Make a decision. My MIL is quirky at best, but frankly who cares, she’s my husband’s mother and deserves some respect.

That’s always pissed me off, woman placing their mothers above their husband’s mother’s. I mean even to the point where they’ve literally cut off the husband’s side of the family. I understand, I’m attached to my mother, but my daughter still sees my husband’s mother at least once a week (she lives like 2 hours away). My philosophy, the more people to love her, the better.

Sometimes it takes a little give in a relationship. The realization that it’s not all about you or your feelings. And that you’ll have to suck it up, and do what’s best for your family as a whole, like it or not. I think women have become overly selfish these days in general. Dr. Laura would say that entitlement has increased like ten fold in this nation. I’m not sure if it’s feminism, Dr. Laura would say so, but something has changed. Everyone is out for themselves, their betterment, their happiness, and if it doesn’t benefit them, then forget it they’re not doing it. Pure selfishness.

[spoiler]Well this book certainly wasn’t any better than the rest. I was pleased with the lack of description of Edward in this book. I mean there was some but not nearly as much as the last two so that made the book more bearable to read. Oh another good part was Bella seemed to not be as obsessed, but maybe that’s because she knew he was her’s so she didn’t need to be that stupid ass obsessed girl anymore. Who knows?

So we start off preparing for the wedding which of course Bella totally doesn’t want to happen. What a selfish bitch I say. I mean here is a whole family preparing for a joyous day and all she can do is bitch and moan. She’s more interested in the honeymoon though. So we finally get through that horrid thing of a wedding, and then Jacob acting like a complete fool, and get to the honeymoon part.

Now frankly I know this is a young adult book, so vivid description of sex wasn’t going to happen, but seriously woman, I want to know what dangerous vampire sex is! But nope, not in this book. The most annoying part was the progression of the pregnancy. If Stephanie didn’t explain this excelerated pregnancy I was going to be pissed. Because it would have shown a severe lack of understanding of pregnancy by the author. Luckily it’s explained away. I mean it’s never fully explained, because this doesn’t happen often, but it’s speculated upon.

Finally the baby is born, and Bella is now a vampire. So we get to go through all this crap, her learning to do stuff, wild passionate sex, telling her father, etc. Boring as hell. I mean seriously this book has little to no action. Someone was explaining what lacks in the whole series, a plot. No, just kidding. It lacks any real plot curve. You don’t go up, there’s nothing to really pull you through unless you’re some obsessed fan or someone like me who can’t not finish a book series (believe me I would have stopped after book number one if I had any will).

I mean even when it comes to the “action” scenes it’s a total let down. No action. Nothing. Just, “OH MY WE’RE GOING TO DIE!” And then “Oh guess not, so sorry, see you later.”

I’m going to hazard to guess the next book series will focus on Jacob and Nessie. Now that might be interesting if it was written by someone other than Stephanie. We’ll see.

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In short this book isn’t really worth the read unless you have a compulsive need to finish a book series no matter how bad it is. Some say I hold this book series up to a really high standard and perhaps I do, being unable to escape into a teenager mindset. But it was frankly, just poorly written. I think this had real potential to be a great series, so many things could have been done differently. Sadly it wasn’t. Oh well. At least I didn’t waste any money buying the book. LOL!

So what’s next on my list? I’m already a month ahead but I’ll just add books as they come up or people alert me to them. If you have any reading suggestions let me know.

The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold

This one hopefully is good. My mom said she read it and liked it. I’ve heard mixed reviews but books tend to be more in the eye of the beholder kind of things. Something I may love, you may hate, and so forth.

So here is my revised list:

• January – Columbine by David Cullen This book I’ve already started but have been having issues finishing due to no time. So I’ll finish this book this month. Finished
• February - House of Leaves by Mark Z. Danielewski Patti got me this for Christmas. Certainly looks interesting. Breaking Dawn by Stephanie Meyers I’m hoping by the time I get to this it’s released in soft cover and the price is less. I don’t want to read this book but I must finish the series. I picked the book up at the Library today. Nothing can beat free right, especially when dealing with a horribly written series such as this.
• March - The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold I’ve heard this book is a good read.
• April - Push by Ramona Lofton Sapphire I want to read this book before the movie comes out on DVD, then I’ll watch the movie.
• May - Night by Elie Wiesel I read this book back when, it’s been quite a few years. I sort of remember it but get it mixed up with another book that’s similar. I’m going to reread it.
• June - Lies my Teacher Told Me : Everything Your American History Textbook Got Wrong by James W. Loewen This one just looks interesting in general.

There’s been an influx of “my life is great” posts on my Facebook page. It’s kind of stupid to be angry over those types of posts. I’m more than sure these people are loving life, I wish I was loving life. And I guess that’s what is angering to me. That I wish I was loving life. And I’m not. Not at all. There’s no break, no fun, just typical everyday mothering stuff. You know, feeding the kid, making sure she’s happy, dealing with the crying, hearing the heartbreaking things she says, trying to get her to do what I ask, etc. Life just revolves around Kaylee.

I know I’ve posted about this before, that my life is just Kaylee and more Kaylee. I never thought I’d be one of those mom’s that say I wanted some sort of other identity other than Mom. You know to do something fun, that doesn’t cost money at all. LOL! But what the hell do I like in general that doesn’t revolve around Kaylee as well?

Anyhoot.

So I went out and took some pictures. It’s insane out. The wind is really blowing but on the porch it’s protected so you wouldn’t even know if the wind was that bad. You just have to look out though and see the rain blowing sideways.

Did I mention that I bought Kaylee a ZhuZhu pet. It’s actually an interesting thing. It is kind of funny as well. It could get annoying but you know it really entertains Kaylee, for like hours, so it’s worth it.

And here for fun a few bonus pictures.