No More Kids…

I always wanted just two children, but you know how it is, sometimes you think maybe you can do one more. Yeah that’s a no. Unless I’m not the one carrying the baby, I’m not having anymore children. This pregnancy has sealed the deal, my tubes are getting tired after this baby (hopefully after six weeks). I’m going to go with Essure which is the coil they place in your tubes that forms scar tissue and basically plugs them up. Apparently it’s not as reversible as a regular tubular but you know what, I don’t care. This pregnancy has been hell and I’m done with it, and I still have 10 weeks to go.

I’m praying that this pregnancy has been hell as a form of punishment for having a healthy child instead of one with the disorder. We’ll see of course cause we won’t know anything until the baby is born. But damn this has been nothing but issue after issue. With Kaylee the only thing that was remotely wrong was potential high blood pressure, cause my blood pressure ran around 135/89 the entire time. Oh and the gestational diabetes scare, cause I didn’t pass the 1 hour and had to take the 3 hour and passed that.

With this baby I’ve had (and some of this might be TMI):

• severe heartburn – so bad that it feels like my chest is about to blow up.
• severe constipation – nothing works at all to cure this
• headaches
• heart palpitations
• severe hip/ankle/knee pain
• extreme tiredness
• food aversion – this did go away after week 15.

But there have been some great things about this pregnancy as well:

• Low blood pressure – nothing over 128/72. My blood pressure is actually lower now than it’s been in years.
• No issues with blood sugar – my first 1 hour (cause I’m obese so I had to do one at 10 weeks) was 109, the second was 117.  So I passed both those with flying colors.
• Continued weight loss – I started at 280 and am down and maintaining at 262. So when I have this child I’ll hopefully lose like I did with my daughter, 40lbs. So that would put me down to to at 220 or so. And even if I don’t lose the 40lbs like I did with Kaylee (with Kaylee I started at 280, dropped 20lbs, gained it back by the end and then lost 40lbs within 3 days of birth) and only lose the like 10 or so people do after they birth a child, that’s still 250 and that’s the lowest I’ve been in nearly 7 years. So that’s just great. I just have to make sure not to put the weight back on like I did after Kaylee.

Sadly those goods do not outweigh all the junk I’ve been going through. But in the end, even though it’s getting a bit annoying, it has been a relatively easy pregnancy. Meaning there haven’t been any complications or need to worry about the baby. I’m not on bed rest, I’m not worrying about early delivery (although for some reason I feel this one will come around 37 weeks), I’m not worried about complications. So that’s a good thing. I am just tired of feeling tired of being sick/tired/etc.

A lot of it is attitude though too which I realized last night when I was up at 1:30am again with my head hurting. The pain, although bad, wasn’t anything that I couldn’t handle. And if this minor headache was so horrible, how the hell could I do natural child birth. Although I do realize that part of the reason this pain is so annoying is because I can’t just go lay and wait for it to go away. I have to continue to take care of Kaylee and do what needs to be done whether or not I’m in pain. With labor Kaylee is going to be with someone else, so I won’t be taking care of her and doing the labor thing. And also in the end just as I need to suck it up with this headache I need to suck it up with labor too.

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