My life is WONDERFUL!
I suddenly understand how some in the infertility community feel when they hear about pregnancy all the time. I mean could you imagine, you spend years trying to conceive and the girl down the street accidentally gets pregnant, or finally a friend has success, you can’t help but feel a bit jealous and angry at your own situation. And it’s like rubbing salt in the wound when people talk about it constantly. It’s why I personally try not to talk too much outside of online about my pregnancy. If I’m not asked, it’s typically not brought up.
There’s been an influx of “my life is great” posts on my Facebook page. It’s kind of stupid to be angry over those types of posts. I’m more than sure these people are loving life, I wish I was loving life. And I guess that’s what is angering to me. That I wish I was loving life. And I’m not. Not at all. There’s no break, no fun, just typical everyday mothering stuff. You know, feeding the kid, making sure she’s happy, dealing with the crying, hearing the heartbreaking things she says, trying to get her to do what I ask, etc. Life just revolves around Kaylee.
I know I’ve posted about this before, that my life is just Kaylee and more Kaylee. I never thought I’d be one of those mom’s that say I wanted some sort of other identity other than Mom. You know to do something fun, that doesn’t cost money at all. LOL! But what the hell do I like in general that doesn’t revolve around Kaylee as well?
Anyhoot.
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One Response to “My life is WONDERFUL!”
I'm a Stay at Home Mom of two beautiful girls, Kaylee and Annabelle.
I blog to write out my thoughts and opinions on my own life and issues that interest me. I do not write to please anyone and don't censor for the sake of others.
What you read here is me, no lies, no exaggerations.
Husband of Pamala and Daddy to Kaylee and Annabelle. He's a Computer Geek and loves all things computer.
In his free time plays with the kids or works on things computer related.
Kaylee is our oldest daughter and she's 4 years old.
Kaylee enjoys drawing, playing, reading, and watching her movies.
Kaylee has a disorder called Hyperinsulinism. She takes medication to maintain her blood sugar but other than that she's perfect in every way.
Annabelle is the newest addition to our family.
Right now she loves to eat, sleep, and make faces. She's healthy and shows no signs of having Hyperinsulinism.
Aunti Patti is an occasional contributor on this blog. She works at "the Bank" and her family consists of her dog, cat, and fish.
She loves visiting with her nieces, plays softball, and is an insane NASCAR fan.
I completely and totally understand. (I will share something with you in person later today too that I can really empathize with you on.) Although being Vinny’s mom is the greatest identity I have ever had, I too went through a stage (right about when I joined the Mamas group actually) when I was starting to really feel sad that I had somehow lost myself in there. To be perfectly honest, this is one of the major reasons I work full-time. I also appreciate that it allows me to have things like a house of my own, health insurance, a housekeeper, and spending money (sometimes!) too, but I am a simple person and could have easily gotten by living in an apartment and not having anything exciting had I chosen not to work. However… I choose to do something I love- teaching. It is another part of my identity. It is what God has called me to do, and I find a lot of fulfillment in life knowing that I make a difference outside of my home. I know that I make a difference as Vinny’s mom too, but making a difference in my classroom is a different feeling. Still… now… I get envious sometimes of Marc that he has so many things other than just being Dad. He gets to do youth ministry and swimming. So, at Marc’s urging, I have decided to start dancing. I was always too nervous to before, because I couldn’t find beginners classes for adults, and I am truly a beginner. But I found some, and I want to do it, so I am gonna give it a shot! You will find your niche too. Just think, “What have I always wanted to do? What is stopping me? How can I work around whatever is stopping me?”
:-)