Common Core

I don’t know anyone that reads this anymore but I’m going to do a little humble bragging about Kaylee.

Her school has been closely aligned with Common Core, not on purpose, but because that’s just how they’ve always been. They’re making the switch to align everything completely with Common Core right now. Frankly I’m excited because the results I’m seeing in Kaylee are amazing.

So lets start off where Kaylee left off in 2nd grade.

She ended the year at the following grade levels:

Reading = 5.1
Math = 4.2
Language = 12.5
Spelling = 6.1
Environment = 3.7

Overall Grade Level = 5.4

Kaylee has been in school for just about a month now and her current scores are as follows (in order of the list on the website):

Music = A (100%)
Math = A (96%)
PE = A (100%)
Homework = A (100%)
Listening & Speaking = A (100%)
Reading = A (93%)
Science = A (96.4%)
Social Studies = A (91.3%)
Spanish = B (87%)
Technology = A (90%)
Writing = B (85%)

I’m certainly not complaining about all of those scores. They’re amazing to me. The writing one will improve, she tends to try to do things fast, when she slows down she doesn’t miss things as much. The Technology grade only has had one assignment and it was out of 10 points and Kaylee got 9, so I imagine as time goes on and more assignments are added things will improve.

This is pretty typical of her class as well. Now I can attribute this to several things, Kaylee is smarter than most (which I believe to be true), she attends a private school so that helps, and frankly their curriculum is amazing. So I guess I’m failing to see the huge issue with it when I’m seeing such huge success. I guess when my kid goes into high school and is at a college level we’ll just pretend it had nothing to do with CC.

 

I said I would post more…

So why not with a rant about how silly people are these days.

You know the internet has really brought out the tacky in people. Remember when it was Bridal Showers and Baby Showers with specific gift requests that were just tacky. Now it’s people on the internet asking for donations to help them go on vacation or buy things they don’t need, but rather want.

When the hell did society turn into a bunch of tacky people who instead of doing what most sane people do, saving money, would rather ask for it from others.

Hey, newsflash, if you can’t afford a vacation, you don’t get to take one. If you can’t afford the fabric for your quilt, you can’t make one. Suck it up and save money until you can. But don’t go begging around the internet asking for someone else to give you money to do your hobby or take your vacation.

I mean how rude in general. As if the people you’re asking money from don’t want to vacation themselves, or do hobby’s they may have.

No one wants to work hard anymore. They all want it given to them. They’ve been fed this bullshit that they deserve this and that, well guess what, you don’t. You work for what you get.

If you’re in true need, that’s when you ask, that’s when you go to your friends and family and request help. But for this crap like a vacation or hobby funding, that’s just rude and disrespectful in my opinion.

Sure I’d love people to give me money to do what I want with, I’d love to go on a vacation that’s not paid for by me. I’d love to make a crap ton of quilts without paying for the fabric. But you know, that just isn’t going to happen.

And then all these good hearted people who give, I mean good for you for wanting to help, but you’re just making this entitlement problem worse. What’s even more sad is when people in real need try to fundraise and what not they get nothing because all these fools asking for vacation donations.

 

Send me a song

Title only because I couldn’t think of anything to put as the title. I really have to keep up with this blog. Maybe now that Person of Interest is picking up again I’ll post some more.

Anyone watch The Leftovers? To say I’m confused would be a understatement. I don’t get it. I am pretty confident that’s what they want for the viewer, to be completely confused so much so that you continue watching the show. Thank God it has a good looking guy as the lead and frankly seeing The Doctor helps too cause he’s my favorite Doctor after all.

So A&E cancelled Longmire. Why? Probably because the demo was wrong. So what if it was the most viewed drama on the station. The wrong people watched it. Plus A&E likes to control their content and they don’t actually produce the show. But you know what that means? That someone else will probably pick it up, because they aren’t idiots like A&E is.

School has started. Kaylee has decided she wants to do band. So she will be learning to play the Alto Sax. To say that wasn’t a bit of me pushing it would be wrong. Frankly I would have loved to learn to play the sax myself. I have a love of Kenny G. I don’t have any real expectations for Kaylee. She may enjoy it or she’ll hate it. But either way it’s a good thing to learn.

She’s also doing ballet which she is enjoying and taking very seriously.

Then she has a minor obsession with Minecraft and I think with the other things that all is balanced out so I don’t need to be concerned.

Annabelle is just being Annabelle. In a month or two they will open up registration for Softball which Annabelle is excited to play. She wants to do ballet but there are very few studios that offer ballet for her age that isn’t combo with tap.

I finished one quilt and am now working on Kaylee’s Minecraft quilt. I’m hoping to have it done in the next few weeks and then I can start on another quilt. I also have two ideas for other quilts that I’m excited to get on doing.

Here’s a picture of my finished quilt. I’d say what it’s for but it’s a surprise for someone and just in case they’ve found me out I’m not going to say what for. LOL!

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Quilting Adventures

It’s been a while so I figured I needed to post. I finished Annabelle’s quilt, which there will be a picture of at the end of this post. I also am half way through another quilt that’s a surprise. I have to find some fabric to do a border and backing for it though, but I have a while to finish that quilt. I also started on Kaylee’s Creeper Quilt.

So quilting is going well.

Other than that, school starts soon for Kaylee and that’s exciting. But nothing really fantastic is going on.

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Getting Serious

So I’m getting serious with quilting. I purchased a sewing machine of my own (instead of using Kaylee’s). I also purchased a program that will allow me to develop patterns and I can’t wait to put that into use. I intend to make patterns and sell them. I’ll also make patterns into quilts as time allows, but that takes time obviously. I also purchased fabric that will allow me to finish up Annabelle’s quilt and also do Kaylee’s quilt.

This past month or so just has been draining. Not sure why really. Maybe just frustrated with the situation in general. I have to get over it, hopefully quilting will help me do that.

I am going to try to quilt my quilts rather than stitch the ditch. Of course I’d have to find a design. For Annabelle’s quilt that actually will be easy, but for Kaylee’s I’m not sure what to do because it’s a Minecraft quilt.

Oh! I scheduled myself a vacation in the end of August right before Kaylee goes back to school. I have a whole week of stuff planned out. We’re going to like five museums that week. It should be fun.

Lucy & Cali

I don’t know if I ever mentioned the two kittens we got about a month or two ago.

Check them out (click on the picture)!

Dancing Girl

Just some pictures I took this week.

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I have to get out more…

Well maybe. I mean it would be fun to go out with “friends” every once in a while. That would require friends to go out with in the first place, and sadly I lack any.

I was though thinking of just getting out after the kids go to bed, going for a walk or something. For an hour. I even got a free app which looks pretty cool that will track what I’ve done and how long I’ve done it. Summer would be a good time to start because frankly, it’s not as dark as early as winter. Guess I should get up off my ass and do it.

So tomorrow, I have to somehow manage to make a rainbow cake for Annabelle’s birthday on Tuesday. I’ll probably be baking all day because we only have two round pans and I need six rainbow layers. Hopefully it turns out good. I’m going to let the cakes fully cool though this time. I tend to be impatient and try to do things too early and that results in cakes that don’t stand up.

Kaylee has dance recital pictures on Thursday night and because I can’t do her hair without her having a major meltdown I’m going to have my friend and hairstylist to it instead. Seriously it’s a simple bun but I want it to look good for the pictures and I know I won’t have the ability to remain calm trying to do it with Kaylee acting like I’m killing her because I brush her hair.

What’s interesting is I wrote a bunch for my book, and now I’m sitting here thinking I might remove some of it because frankly I just don’t think it was all that realistic. I hate filler and that’s the problem, I was trying to put in filler. But the filler really wasn’t all that great.

Or I might just start over. LOL! Yet another one of those things that I want to do that I just don’t get around to doing.

I’m here, so why not?

Someone posted on a message board asking us what the best part of being divorced was. Other than getting every other weekend “off” not much is great about being divorced. I get it, most people don’t like their ex’s and have very bad divorces, or their marriages were just bad.

I can’t say that my marriage was horrible. There were just things that could not be accepted, that were not things that I was willing to have our kids grow up with. And I don’t know. I don’t know if divorcing me was what Brian needed, perhaps marriage was bad for him, or divorce was just a kick in the ass to make him do what was right, but he’s done what he should have done while we were married.

So to me being divorced really sucks because frankly I think we had a rather good marriage when things weren’t so out of control. I think focus shifted onto Kaylee and that spurred a lot of what happened. You know you have to care about your spouse and while kids are important to focus about, it’s not good when you neglect your spouse.

And I know I was far from perfect. Brian dealt with the stress of having children and in particular a sick child, in a certain way. I think the weight of providing for the kids was heavy on him. I dealt with the stress the only way I knew how, control and planning. Which meant when things didn’t go as I wanted, I could have a temper. Plus I was dealing with anxiety on top of it all.

So I think in the end we didn’t handle having a sick child very well. And that’s really too bad. I think we could have made it if we had just taken the time to really look at what we were doing and how it was affecting us.

But who knows, I might be delusional in it all. I don’t know for sure how Brian really felt about anything. The divorce in the end was in fact my doing. I don’t know if it’s something he feels was needed, we’ve never talked about it. He told me when we first divorced that nothing was my fault, and while it would be lovely to believe that, it’s really hard to believe. I mean frankly I can’t put all the things that went wrong solely on him, no matter how much easier that would be, and doing so would never allow me to understand where I went wrong in this whole thing.

Still though sometimes I get angry. Maybe at the lack of acknowledgement of what happened, the things that were done, what I went through. I don’t even know if he understands that even to this day, if I don’t get a text or call from him I worry that something has gone wrong. I mean seriously every time he has been in serious trouble I’ve dropped everything to help.  Some sort of acknowledgment of that, maybe even a “Sorry I put you through that” would be nice.

There have been two times in my life where I thought I was going to lose someone I loved (like literally die). When Kaylee was in the hospital being diagnosed, and when Brian was in the hospital right before our divorce. He doesn’t remember much of that time, but I sure as hell do. I kind of wish he would acknowledge how traumatic that situation was. How hard it was to walk into the room and see him in a coma, hooked up to all sorts of machines and wires, and have a doctor tell you they don’t know if he would wake up. It was hard, really hard.

Anyhow I think that’s the only thing that really angers me in this whole thing. I don’t care about the things he did, the mistakes he made, I’m only anger over what seems as a lack of realization about how that effected me. Everything has been about him for so long. Always worrying about him. Making sure he’s okay, so that he will be around. I often wonder when someone will actually care about me as well. I really wish I could just stop caring.

Well it looks like spell check is not working, there are words I spelled two different ways and apparently are both right, so you’ll have to just suck it up and deal with my spelling errors. Hey I’ve never been known for being a great speller.

For those who know me in real life, I write because I don’t like to talk. So don’t try to talk to me about this. LOL!

Projects to be done

I have a few projects I’m working on here in the next few months.

First is a quilt for Annabelle, pattern so accurately named, Anabel as well. She’s excited. Technically it’s a Christmas gift but she has seen me working on it. She’s 4, anything that she hasn’t seen before will be beautiful and wonderful.

Then I have to make the teacher gift for Annabelle’s teacher. I have a pattern and hopefully enough fabric for it. We’ll see.

Then for Kaylee for Christmas I’m making a Creeper quilt from Minecraft. Took a few ideas from Pinterest and mashed them into my own pattern for it. I’m telling you the most hard work for this quilt was figuring out how much fabric I needed.

So although my birthday isn’t close, I realized recently that I’m going to be 32 this year. You know I seemed to think I’d be doing a whole lot more, having a bit more fun, than I currently am. But it is what it is. I have to get out of my funk of self loathing and dislike of how things are. I imagine if I changed the way I thought about things, life would be a whole lot more fun.

So you know I was sick from like January to April of this year. Had Asthma induced by a cold/sinus infection. I’ve been on a medication for that Asthma ever since. If I don’t take it for more than two days my Asthma acts back up. So the question then becomes, do I keep taking the med until it’s out and see if by that time (which should be end of July) the Asthma is completely gone or is this a new normal, where I now have asthma. I’ll for sure have to go back to the doctor about this if it doesn’t completely go away.

Maybe I’ll start writing in this blog again. LOL! How many times have I said that and not done it? Like I said before I don’t feel I can be honest anymore so I just choose not to write. But maybe it’s time to throw some honesty out there? Eh, probably not. LOL!